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Reflections on the Fast
February 3, 2010, 12:24 am
Filed under: Daniel Fast

This past Monday, February 1st, at 6am, I officially finished this year’s Daniel Fast. The fast is normally just 21 days, but I heard God tell me to go until the end of the month and so I did.

I can’t say that it was ridiculously hard or challenging, because after a few years of doing it, you just get used to what you can and can’t have and deal with it. That’s not to say, however, that it wasn’t a sacrifice. Anyone who knows me in any capacity knows that I love food of all kinds — especially meat and bread. Oh, and cheese too. I love all the things we can’t have on the fast. This makes it, as much as I get used to it, still difficult.

But I stayed strong, found my staples — Larabars, Odwalla products, and homemade veggie stew with brown rice — and stuck it out. The hardest part was after everyone else was finished, knowing that I had to “walk” that extra distance by myself.

So what did I get out of all this? Just what I wanted — clarity. I wanted to clarify some relationships and where they needed to be and that’s what God did for me. It probably wasn’t two weeks in before I felt like I had the answer I needed, but I told myself, at the beginning of the fast, that I wouldn’t make any “judgment” until the fast was complete. So I did just that. I got my answer, confirmed multiple times, and I feel confident.

I have to be perfectly honest with you (as if sometimes I’m not). I didn’t get the answer I was hoping for. Isn’t it a tad bit disappointing when that happens?

*sigh*

Such is life. I’ve always been a believer in the principle that you have to be ready for any answer before you ask a question. That means the good, the bad, and the ugly.

I don’t know if I want to admit that I can be the pessimist, but more often than not, I’ll walk through the worst case scenario, hoping that it doesn’t happen, but want to be prepared just in case. It’s kind of like an insurance policy (or a gun) — you hope you don’t have to use it, but you’re better off having it than not. I’ve always found that it’s helpful to play out the worst case scenario, even if it doesn’t happen.

In this case, I thought about the worst scenario, but that doesn’t mean that I wanted, or even believed it would happen. But it did. God gave me direction. And it wasn’t that way. So I kept it moving. Or rather, since it was so recent, I’m still trying to keep it moving.

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Yes this has happen to me when i was on the Daniel fast. But I see it like this I didn’t get what I wanted I guess I got what I needed and that was the let down because they weren’t the same thing. Still pondering on it though.

Comment by Janine

Thanks for the update Stu. I was wondering what you received out of the fast. I totally understand what you mean regarding not wanting to be a pessimist and hoping for the best answer. However, like you said if God gave you direction, you just have to move forward. I start my fast for Lent soon…. I have a lot to get clarity on… I may have to tug you for some assistance with the food tho LOL

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